Friday, August 17, 2007
many things are gg thru my mind lyk a bullet train.what and where should i start? feeling so confused.watever u say are in my mind and when it keep repeating itself,tears just fill my eyes..suddenly got the urge to be alone be it hiding anywhere.freedom,peace,happiness,joys,laughter,begin myself is all i wan to have and be.may i have it?
I feel tat i am no longer happy,s in happy inside me. Putting on a fake smile to go out with frenz and sch..too much of unwanted feeling.i feel alone.I lyk to be alone but yet hate the feeling.so wat do i really want? Did i really changed for the worst?No one knows.
months pass,weeks pass,days pass,hour pass.what am i really hoping for?
been watching movies to relax myself.great movie..great company :) thnks:)
dinner with HKN mates last sunday at ZF's mum restaurant.Have lots of fun there..thanks ppls.u all have been great:) see ya guys around soon! take care
Mountain Climbing Training!:for the past few weeks,i've been gg for mountain climbing training..It is just the beginning..everytym is just running round and round the track,up and down the stair..So far so Good :) feeling great with those perservance and endurance.Just love it!! i enjoyed myself cos i manage to get rid of the unhappiness for the moment..but but but.can i commit myself to this 6 months training? and away 1 months for the journey?CONSIDERING! dun wish to give up half way too..so ppls. support mie with my decision k?
Coming Up Soon: IVP for bball? Should I or Should I not? PPLS suggestions for me? Perhaps I need to be more confidence in myself.CE Coach told mie my mistake in POLITE..hearing it again.i feel disappointed in myself..sorry to let the team down..I hope to play for IVP but can i improve myself in this short tym? I dun wan disappointment again, too afraid.
Schools: Been skipping OFA this week..yest skipped OFA in the morning,didnt know y i skipped it too.frenz called mie i was awake but i just dun feel lyk gg sch.perhaps i start to afraid of gg sch le ba.Woke up late for BFD mock test. studied till late the previous day, didnt manage to finish the paper.OH man.Guess it Badly Done ba..i shall and must work harder again :) HUIQIN JIAYOU!!! Presson!! Exams are coming Rite UP!!Projects, Test..Going to be busy with all these again ba..training and studies=TIRED, TIRED=ENDURE! am i wrong? Who cares!!
Fren: My fault for leaving the team even before we can fight till the end as a team.but u will nv know and feel wat i am feeling tat very moment. i chose to leave.sorry ba.dun have the courage to speak and see ya..i say wat i have to say it up to whether u wan to forget it and be frenz or just continue to be lyk this.i'm tired of everything. See wat you guys wan to do with mie ba!
Alrite. It have been a long post.sorry ppls.just feeling too much inside mie..thanks for reading! take care and god bless :) byes.
I feel tat i am no longer happy,s in happy inside me. Putting on a fake smile to go out with frenz and sch..too much of unwanted feeling.i feel alone.I lyk to be alone but yet hate the feeling.so wat do i really want? Did i really changed for the worst?No one knows.
months pass,weeks pass,days pass,hour pass.what am i really hoping for?
been watching movies to relax myself.great movie..great company :) thnks:)
dinner with HKN mates last sunday at ZF's mum restaurant.Have lots of fun there..thanks ppls.u all have been great:) see ya guys around soon! take care
Mountain Climbing Training!:for the past few weeks,i've been gg for mountain climbing training..It is just the beginning..everytym is just running round and round the track,up and down the stair..So far so Good :) feeling great with those perservance and endurance.Just love it!! i enjoyed myself cos i manage to get rid of the unhappiness for the moment..but but but.can i commit myself to this 6 months training? and away 1 months for the journey?CONSIDERING! dun wish to give up half way too..so ppls. support mie with my decision k?
Coming Up Soon: IVP for bball? Should I or Should I not? PPLS suggestions for me? Perhaps I need to be more confidence in myself.CE Coach told mie my mistake in POLITE..hearing it again.i feel disappointed in myself..sorry to let the team down..I hope to play for IVP but can i improve myself in this short tym? I dun wan disappointment again, too afraid.
Schools: Been skipping OFA this week..yest skipped OFA in the morning,didnt know y i skipped it too.frenz called mie i was awake but i just dun feel lyk gg sch.perhaps i start to afraid of gg sch le ba.Woke up late for BFD mock test. studied till late the previous day, didnt manage to finish the paper.OH man.Guess it Badly Done ba..i shall and must work harder again :) HUIQIN JIAYOU!!! Presson!! Exams are coming Rite UP!!Projects, Test..Going to be busy with all these again ba..training and studies=TIRED, TIRED=ENDURE! am i wrong? Who cares!!
Fren: My fault for leaving the team even before we can fight till the end as a team.but u will nv know and feel wat i am feeling tat very moment. i chose to leave.sorry ba.dun have the courage to speak and see ya..i say wat i have to say it up to whether u wan to forget it and be frenz or just continue to be lyk this.i'm tired of everything. See wat you guys wan to do with mie ba!
Alrite. It have been a long post.sorry ppls.just feeling too much inside mie..thanks for reading! take care and god bless :) byes.
what we could have been, 2:09:00 PM.
